When now I look back at the dreams I had early
My great expectations, to live a full life
To experience tugging the edges of possible
Learning and loving and giving and strife
I'd invent grand new plans as I worked toward my future
I'd reach for new heights, give great effort, and thanks
I'd achieve my best hopes, and my peers would acknowledge
We'd made the world nicer, we'd closed up the ranks
And while I was waiting for my little curtain
To rise, I'd rehearse all my lines, so I'd shine
I'd press neat my costume and do my own make-up
And fuss with my props and insist I was fine
I argued the plot with the cast, the director
I sulked in my dressing room, far from the stage
I could not see myself in this role I was destined
To play, I would write my own script, as a sage
I auditioned each morning for new roles I wanted
In plays that had not yet seen light of day
I vaguely felt certain the course for my action
Would start, any minute, I'd know what to say
As I read the reviews of my peers in their roles
Their astounding successes, their families, careers
Their latest falls downhill, after such greatness
Retired, now grandparents, years upon years
I feel kind of jealous, like I missed my calling
But lately I realize I never did start
While all those around me were playing society
I sought perfection, deep down in my heart
Never did I think I'd ever have trouble
In finding my place in the world as a star
But I've stumbled blindly, alone and in circles
And missing my mark, I can now see how far